@Cyberdevil theres a quote that says signs and symbols rule the world but that a call for an uprising dude shows ALL those signs and symbols you would have to get into that kind of mindset and see how it all works its insanity
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Mmm, I feel like you can see signs and symbols in everything if that's what you're looking for though, even if it's not there by design. Have watched videos on symbol and number theories and how all things tie together before and honestly it just oftentimes seems pretty farfetched. Maybe I just don't currently have the correct mindset to see things as they really are, but it seems hard to get into it without compelling proof... it's a bit similar to my current stance on religion. How do you believe if you don't believe. It you don't see the logic or reason in it. It's easy in particular to disprove something, but how do you show proof of said disproval? Like for example with the Wisconsin shooting you mentioned below, if there really were no dead bodies, if everyone on set was a crisis actor, where's the evidence of that? It's easy to disprove what you can't see, but how do you disprove what you do see? Oftentimes it feels like we choose the side we want to believe in, and don't question the side we choose. I find it hard to choose either side.
@Cyberdevil cyber there is another channel called DayzofNoah who is more of an intellectual than anything else he is very intelligent maybe you can check him out?? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWnOGEPWMQc
Woo that's a long one... I don't have the time to truly dive into this right now, but I promise I'll watch through it in full at a later time; try to keep an open mind. Will let you know how it goes.
@Cyberdevil and the reason for the symbolism is because its always there in music videos/albums, like 2112 from rush, i think it was... 2+1 is 3 / 1+2=3 so thats 33 they always use it,its everywhere
Interesting. In that particular case the title suite of the album is actually set in a totalitarian society where the evil priests of the Temples of Syrinx keep everyone in line, so maybe they intended it to break down that way... curious what you think about Angel Number 33? It seems to have spiritual connotations too, or is that more so blasphemous; not truly an intended nature of said numerals?
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wow...it's been a long time. When is Bob's Big Bonanza aka your long digital sabbatical to the Great Northern Norths? Unfortunately I have not been around much this year. When you die on NewGrounds, you die in real life. Little has gone as planned. And I don't mean that in a spontaneous, exciting, or adventurous type of way. That's why the best plans are no plans: little in life works out the way you want it to. Ever seen the Korean movie Parasite. I've gotta several new movie recommendations.
Hey hey, a rare S3C sighting! :D I'm actually up North right now; will be for a couple weeks this time. Initial plantation preparation. This year vacation's split up in four shorter trips and one longer for most of July, so I'll probably be posting my customary 'it's summer so...' post around then.
Brought a laptop with me this time though + wireless modem. Negotiated three extra weeks where I work at a distance part time as to get a bit more time to refurbish stuff up here, so this is the first of those trips.
Too true... though if you're spending less time online does that mean you're spending more time IRL? Making friends? Creative something lasting outside the digital realm just in passing...?
Haven't seen Parasite yet but it's on my watchlist too, seems like a good one.
You have internet out in the wilderness O_O isn't that kinda blasphemous...excluding the bi-weekly library trips...well I guess things change, people grow up, and cannot stay untapped from the Matrix for too long...on the bright side NewGrounds where relish your shorter Summerly absence...
will you be refurbishing printers
that would be the alternative, it's not like I partake in other internet communities, no social media, etc. I work 10-12 hour days, extra time is purely on my own volition, we get few things we can care about in life, so I tend to spend most of my time there. Outside of that I've been helping install solar panels, because the contractors tend to be unreliable and overly expensive- we just work for food. I'm a small, pliable guy with good heat tolerance, so my body type is ideal for work in the attic. I also have been hiking more, started briefly to train for a mountaineering/rescue group but I stopped attending the sessions like a month ago.
All this is good, but not fulfilling as making music and writing online for me. I'm not a victim and am more privileged than most- but I simply cannot fall in line with the things I'm married to. I can't break free of things that are the fibre of my being. The last few months have been a blur...and lately I have been in a dysthymic nostalgia cocoon. No, there's nothing positive about that. Maybe cocoon is not the right word if it implies evolving into something stronger. This is not bittersweet reminiscing of good memories, it's like being stuck in a dream, cajoled to the good parts, only for the landscape to fade, movement becomes rigid, and thoughts/communication fragmented.
Yuupp, it does feel that way doesn't it? I should be on outside working hours at least but now that it's possible, and there's B/P to collect on NG and all... this is why I really prefer being disconnected entirely. XD If there's potential for compromise then it's too easy to compromise!!! Yeah those library visits feel kinda nostalgic now. Just an hour or so every other week or so. Would've been special. Alas, cellphone coverage everywhere now, portable devices, it's too easy.
But I'm not bringing my laptop up on any of the non-work trips! I hope. Different feel without it, though it's not so bad like this either really. Best of both worlds. Work till you can't work no more; then get online and do some good there too... I tell myself...
lmao no printers up here unfortunately XD Non-tech refurbishments.
Ah that sounds like healthy alternative work! Bit like my alternative life in summer deals. Maybe a good way to meet new peeps too; get connections? Potential to branch out wth freelance solar panel installation? Seems like a healthy kind of job. Doing good for the world at the same time. And hiking/mountaineering's awesome. Didn't figure you for that much of an outdoors person! Still hiking though, with group or no? If interest wanes maybe manually powered vehicular contraptions could prove a suitable alternative. Like mountain biking.
Mmm, maybe just need to find the optimal balance between the both of them? Like I feel I'd ideally need to find with this place we have up here. Maybe not stay totally disconnected but still spend more time up here; in nature overall. In a landscape that truly benefits me; feels inspiring and physically cathartic too. Seems easier to alternative between the digital and the real here than down South where there's just no 'real' alternative. Cities feel cagey; sounds constant; overpopulation stifling.
Yeah cocoon sounded like a positive kind of precondition. :) Less positive with sentimental stagnation... sounds like... lethargy? Missing purpose/motivation? The gut can really influence mood too, if you still have such problems...
I don't think nostalgia itself is a bad thing, memories seem good if they're good; it's good to not forget the past if you can also use it to further yourself. Traditions seem beneficial not just in comfort but in that they tie people together; form a foundation for peace and purpose. As they say we all want change, but not so much the change doesn't still feel familiar. Need a balance. Both roots and branches.
Hope you find the right way; balance somehow. Personally I'm starting to feel like real purpose might only be found with family...
I wouldn't say change is something one inherently wants, but it is an inevitable part of life that some people adapt to better. And a lot of change, is quite frankly manufactured BS. You can be bright-eyed, optimistic, and make the best about what's to come, or become a bitter old man yelling at clouds. Or in my case my past self or something.
I think I've wrote about this before in one form or another...1. your purpose at birth is discover to yourself and satisfy your needs 2. a bit later in life, when you begin to understand stuff, your purpose is to learn a cool skill, for the sake of it being fun 3. then you ask, how can I use these skills to learn more about the universe? 4. and then comes the existential question, who am I in this universe, and how can I use these skills to learn about myself? 1. and 4. are essentially the same but approached from a different side. Between 1,2 and 4,1 the purpose can be finding 'love', to which the nearest recipients are family.
Which begs the question, what classifies as a family? Is it the people who raised you? Or is it just a group of people for which you share common interests and values? How important is relation by blood? Are those that are adopted/estranged unable to truly find their purpose? Is a family not complete until you find a romantic partner, and bear offspring? If having children isn't purpose enough, it minimum it gives an imperative.
A biological imperative or frequent exposure is enough to create a familial or platonic bond/love. But we can't force (romantic) love towards or from others that's required (or should be) to marry and make babies. We can't force artistic inspiration. And like you said below...we can't force belief. When we force these things, we create blasphemes and insincerity, an evil in and of itself. Your views as a secular 'outsider' to religion are more friendly than my own. In some traditions (conservative Christianity, in my case- not to say all are like this) if you become a skeptic, you get disowned by family. I can handle disownment, but I will take a lie to the grave if spares others the suffering of the preconceived consequences of not following their path. You write "But whatever people do believe, as long as it doesn't harm anyone", I think fire-and-brimstone teachings and planting inescapable seeds of guilt can be seen as a form of abuse against children, "I wish we'd coexist better as whole. Learn from each other instead of trying to convert or appraise only our individual faiths", this is incompatible with my upbringing by design...for the wage of sin is death. This doesn't mean that you simply disappear in the afterlife, opposed to celebrating with loved ones for eternity- it means you get dragged into a literal fire and are tortured for infinity. All for something not based on a blip of good deeds, but because you lacked the faith to believe in the unfalsifiable. If you truly believe this, there is no room to be respectful of other faiths, you damn well better be trying to convert anyone and everyone!
Mmm I guess so. As you age though I think you start to seek improvement, so maybe change seems like a catalyst for that. For growth. I wonder how this works with the material realm though, we keep opting for newer technical innovation; looking to try new things, but if we don't actually want change at all... is it all just clever marketing? Or do we somehow relate material newness to a personal level of improvement...? Seems like all too similar items can induce boredom overtime. On the other hand you grow an affinity to things the longer you have the them, and become all the more unwilling to throw them away. But maybe that's just with people of a sentimental strain. And it does seem like you tire of new things when you get to a certain age. Maybe it's a search for meaning hmm, the mortal search somehow involves things as well...
Wonder how bitterness factors into this whole equation. Do you get bitter because the world changes more than necessary, or because you don't follow said change as you'd like to. Is worldly progression irrelevant to coming to terms with yourself or are both personal and social and material elements somehow all intertwined with our superimposed ideals...
Hmm that does sound like the natural progression. Seems like there oughta be a fifth step too! The grand revelation. The epiphany of design. That point at which the reason for said progression comes to light. If life was just all about procreation it seems we'd have no need to look for more. So what is the more. That does explain our with time first growing and waning interest in technology, though. Or other alternative functional architectures of the world.
In regard to family, I don't think blood really matters at all. More so we become close to the people we spend the most time with, and so our closest family just so happens to usually be blood-related. But in regard to adoption, I feel like the earliest years in life are bound to have profound implications on how we grow, so if the parents we're born to aren't there during our earliest years it's bound to cause some emotional problems down the line. And I wonder if a mother can really care for a child as much if they didn't conceive it themselves. It seems there may be some biological markers involved there that you bypass with adoption. I don't mean to say those who adopt children aren't doing a great deed, and don't care for their children, but it just has to be a little different... regarding the potential purpose of bearing offspring, I wonder if it just might be the best way to truly become selfless. Feels like it's a trait you can learn the hard way, but with kids it'd be almost automatic. Plus you'd get a sense of close affinity to a being that'd hopefully outlive you, and thus provide you with a certain sense of comfort as you age. Feels like a useful natural cycle, though is it with purpose too? It'd seem like the only meaning in life would be to procreate after all then. But maybe unnecessary to overthink this, and just do; experience life as it's meant to be experienced. I've been thinking.
In regard to those things we can't force: it is said that you like a person more and more the more you see them though, so maybe romance can be grown just by frequent exposure/habit. Like you ca force certain artistic inspiration by routine. If you just make it a habit to write something, for example, for a certain duration each day. Maybe that's no real force of inspiration though, or romance, maybe more so the act of honing... all things improved by devotion and discipline.
Mmm when it comes to religion or the lack-thereof I've grown up in an appreciatively open family... I wonder how I'd handle preconditioning. If a faith was absolute, but I didn't believe it. Maybe I wouldn't be as tolerant. Maybe I'd let myself be brainwashed as to keep the family ties I cherish. Yes, in many ways I do think a strict religious upbringing is a form of abuse. Though on the bright side it can give you a sense of discipline and self-worth too. Some people seem to need it, others less so.
I didn't realize you'd had that kind of upbringing yourself, you've always been open to philosophical ponderings. :O Is this something you do believe yourself? Partially? I realize the fundamental teachings of Christianity for example do make it hard to speak against it, or seek an alternative, or in any way try to bridge teachings, but to be personally most faiths are just such huge logical fallacies. I suppose only when you don't believe them, and have no reason to be bitter about not believing them/haven't grown up in a place where said belief was forced upon you, then you can see them for their potential benefits despite the lack of sense they make...
It makes sense the world is as it is though, and we don't understand each other on so many planes. Or even if we do don't allow ourselves too. Family keeps us in check. Even if blood isn't important per se the people we're raised by definitely are regardless.
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Yesss it passes fast this one... best make the best of this second half!!!
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At least the 140-200s are maybe the best day of the year...
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what are maybe the worst days of the year...
Hmmmmmm days 300-350 maybe? When it's dark but still not really festive. When the warmt is waning away but the snow still won't fall and whiten the world. When everything's just bleak and gray and dreary and you're back to the perpetual grind.
Days 1-60 are kinda dark too but feel like a new start too. A little better. A little brighter by the day. Moving the right way again; comfortable in the cold at that point.
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Thanks man. Final stretch now...
Your welcome man. Final kvetch now...
Do I carp and grumble that much?! XD Learned a new word though, final fetch now...
Only 18 more comments. Then I can claim #100 with one final etch now...
Ah that's what your going for! Coincidentally just got a review on an old sketch now...
speaking of old sketches...time to watch one final showing of Fletch(1985) now...
For reals? I'm a rest now, but don't think I've seen, adding to watchlist...
you didn't rhyme, combo breaker...no I wouldn't waste my time on a Chevy Chase movie I hadn't even heard of it until I looked for rhymes...to win a rap battle with NewGrounds Conspiracy Rapper Mist...
Ah but I did! 'A rest now'. Near rhyme. Does it not qualify? Is the chain truly broken and all divine now hollow time? It may squiggle but I do follow line a little still, like olive vines.
Hmm wonder if I was involved in a thread like that, vague memories still attest...
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Woooah that's a lot! As a non-opening post maybe it does, though some of the more popular news ones: https://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1498229#bbspost27285244_post_text
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@Cyberdevil are you for real? a 33 TOUR???? youve got to be joking me? oh man thats just vomit worthy terrible oh for the people with eyes to see and ears to hear thats just childs play garbage yes he sends you half truths and half lies to put you towards a wrong direction..wow 33 tour thats just hilarious the freemasons have 33 as their highest degree because it's a mockery against christ they think they've won but they are far from the truth, actually right now you can go look up the recent "shooting" in wisconsin and there's symbolism all over it, i saw 33, 23 (meaning 2 3's) and 6's all over the news posts, that's how they talk in code/symbolism, the bit chute user called MAG BITTER TRUTH he can show you so fast about the symbolism and when you see the symbolism so often you know that it's a hoax, so far i see no dead bodies, no gore, no nothing, but all i see is crappy footage of people running....crisis actors it looks like, why would they just be randomly running out in the streets? where are they all going? did nobody "record" the "shooting"??? its stuff like this that plagues me so often i dont believe a thing i hear on the news EVER... call/richie/and mag are really the only ones i listen to.... i do read this sometimes for motivation if you would like to see it https://revelationsofjesuschrist.com/a-prayer-to-break-all-curses-do-this-every-day/#.VoceiJV0xYc ..i hope all is well by the way
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It is for real yupp. You can see the IMO pretty artful title image here: https://www.russellbrand.com/live-dates/
Though how is the number itself a mockery? I mean I'll be turning 33 years myself next year... I'd like to think a number doesn't mean anything by itself. Symbolism seems harmless. Intention less so. Why would they talk in code? How would it benefit them? To me it seems more so you follow money to find the perpetrators. That all evil in the world's for profit. Not something anyone intentionally tries to showcase, but rather put up veils of non-essential news to hide...
I do like seeing things from different sides though. Interesting to have this perspective too.